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Saturday, Dec. 31, 2005 - 1:07 a.m. In review.Thank fuck that�s over. It�s been a bit like watching a car crash this year, ain�t it? I�ve parked the car on the hard shoulder now and decided to walk the rest of the way, that way maybe I�ll see the obstacles before I smash into them. To paraphrase The Shins (who were, no doubt, paraphrasing someone else) the year has been short, but some of the days were so very long. If it wasn�t the year I lost my Dad I�d wrap the whole twelve months up and forget it ever happened. But 2005 will become like 1996 and 2000, years where I look back and find it hard to fathom how I kept putting one foot in front of the other. For now it�s still one very small step at a time, but that�s as it should be. For everything else this year, I�ve learned my lessons, albeit the hard way, but I choose to forget the details. This is what I know:
Indeed I�ve made some stupid choices this year that have done me more harm than good. I'm ashamed of the way I've treated other people whilst I didn't know what was going on for me. I choose to learn. I know that where I find myself right now is the right place to be, the people that have stuck by me are enough to get me through this last leg. I need sort myself out so that I can be a better friend to them. So, this time next year, we�ll be back to the insightful lists of slebs that missed the opportunity to have a wild fling with me Year In Review.
Stuff what is good and makes me happy: - Saturday, Dec. 20, 2008 Not really an update. - Monday, Jan. 22, 2007 Don't know when I'll be back again. - Sunday, Dec. 10, 2006 - - Tuesday, Nov. 21, 2006 The drugs don't work. - Monday, Oct. 23, 2006 details voyeurism self-indulgence for all --> |