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Wednesday, Sept. 27, 2006 - 11:11 a.m. In a town where blood ties are only blood.*Probably best to just close the window now.
I did use the camera a bit. But all of the film is still sitting in my room undeveloped. Documents of a few months of which I don�t really want to see the evidence. Now the camera is on the shelf of odd sentimental things. Mum�s favourite book. Last Christmas card from Mum. Last birthday card from H. The little makeup compact my grandfather gave to my Mum when she was sixteen. My Dad's fountain pen, inscribed with the initials we share. Photographs. Small pretty containers of Mum�s and H�s ashes. But, yanno, all discrete like. I had promised no more morbid posts, hadn�t I? Oh well. This is how it is. I need to have a little cry I think. Tears are like laughter, you just need to do that from time to time. Hopefully more of the laughter though. Right now it�s just sitting there, tightening my chest but not moving. So later I�ll go for a drive, and have a bit of a weep along a motorway going nowhere. Though what I really need is a little alarm that goes off when I stray over 110mph. I shock myself when I glance down at the speedometer *Regina Spektor
Stuff what is good and makes me happy: - Saturday, Dec. 20, 2008 Not really an update. - Monday, Jan. 22, 2007 Don't know when I'll be back again. - Sunday, Dec. 10, 2006 - - Tuesday, Nov. 21, 2006 The drugs don't work. - Monday, Oct. 23, 2006 details voyeurism self-indulgence for all --> |